If it is meant to be, let the Universe provide the opportunity to make the connections that are necessary—to pollinate the evolution of thought. Not random, but it used to seem that way. It’s always a surprise. Now I am a magnet—creating the environment, attracting abundance, fueling positive relationships.

Each step, whether good or bad, is still a step forward. Lessons to be learned. Possessions to be renounced. The shedding of assumptions like the shedding off of skin and hair. The little deaths we live each day leading us to new births, the cycle continues.

The less I hang on, the freer I become. The freer I become, the more space I provide. The more space I provide, the more room there is for spirit. For all things are but a creation within my own imagination. The people, the noise of murmur, murmur… the trees and flowers, mountains and ice, the cool breeze that kisses my cheek on a hot day. I am thankful. This is my song. Can you hear it in the thunder?

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Conditioning Part II

I just knew there would be a part II didn’t you? :)

Think about it…From a young age we are conditioned by family, teachers, media, society, etc about what we can and can’t do; what we can and can’t say; what we can and can’t achieve in life.

We are told to go to school, get secure jobs, take out mortgages, work till we’re old, then retire to scrape a living on pensions that leave most old people in poverty.

We’re taught to treat people differently because of their sex, colour or religion – and overlook the fact we have a lot more in common with them.

We’re conditioned to settle for whatever we get in life – instead of empowered to go out and get everything we really want.

And because of this conditioning, very few people ever realize that…

…having a job does not give you security.

…you don’t have to be like everyone else for people to like you.

…it’s better to judge people by their values instead of sex, colour or religion.

…you don’t have to settle for unfulfilling relationships, a job you hate, or an unhappy life.

…the past does not equal the future.

Because the truth is…

No matter what anyone says. no matter where you are in your life, no matter how bad things might be right now, you can break free of previous conditioning and create whatever life you want for yourself.

You can have…

…the money.

…the free time.

…the loving relationships.

…the freedom to be yourself.

…all the fun, joy and happiness you want.

And the first step to having all this is to break free of the chains of previous conditioning.

Sadly, most people will never try.

Because — like the elephants — they have been conditioned to believe they have no power over their circumstances. So they are destined to be ridden for the rest of their lives.

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I read a bit about a son and his father going to the circus and the son asks his dad. How come the chain tied to his foot is so small. Can’t he just break it? OF COURSE he can his father replied. The baby elephant at an early age is shackled to very thick chain and after a few weeks of trying to break free he/she gives up. Then they from then on a full grown elephant will not even try to break the chain even tho it could.

So that is like US! We are conditioned in life to believe a certain form of religion, to think a certain way about politics, etc…etc… the real bad rap is if you have negative parents that tell you won’t amount to anything, can’t go to school, lazy, etc…etc…

It’s time to BREAK the chain. Get away from the negativity and replace it with positive thoughts. We can do “ANYTHING” we want. All we have to do is reprogram our brains … Change are thoughts of years of negativity to ” I CAN DO IT! ” – ” I DESERVE IT! ” ” I ATTRACT POSITIVE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE! ” ” I LOVE MYSELF! ” Etc…etc.. I could go on and on…

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Finding it…Found

No matter what you have or get, you won’t be happy. You will always be looking for something else that promises greater fulfillment, that promises to make your incomplete sense of self complete and fill that sense of lack you feel within.

If the thought of lack – whether it be money, recognition, or love – has become part of who you think you are, you will always experience lack. Rather than acknowledge the good that is already in your life, all you see is lack.

I find it strange that everyone is looking for love, money, goodness when 90% of it is already with in us.  Inside of us.

You do not become good by trying to be good, but by finding the goodness that is already within you, and allowing that goodness to emerge.

I always see this line everywhere.  You could replace good with happiness, loving, etc…etc…  it’s already there within.  Knowing and seeing that you already have it (stop looking for it) and know that you can only find it within and further more know that we already HAVE it ALREADY within us.  Just been looking in the wrong place all this time.  I mean, how can you find something that we already have right?  Enjoy!

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Look for simple stuff before you jump off a cliff. I stopped chasing happiness and it started chasing me. That means, relax a bit and enjoy what you have now instead of what you think you need. Getting all wound up about something just ties you in knots.

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Wanting Vs. Having

do your best because you WANT to do it, NOT because you HAVE to do it … Taking action because you enjoy the action. Action is about living fully. … Without action upon an idea, there will be no manifestation, no results and no reward. Do the action because you love it and not because you expecting money or reward in return.   If you don’t follow your Bliss and start living life to do the best in your self and of your actions you won’t enjoy it and in turn won’t want to do your best.  Being aware and learning from mistakes to do it better or improve upon idea’s the next go around is doing the best.   Just having to do it because you need the money you’ll never bother to improve.   It’s inherently within us all  to take action and the desire to achieve our best.   An action isn’t worth doing if your not going to strive for the best.

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Eternity has nothing to do with time. Eternity is the dimension of here and now which thinking and time cuts out. This is it. And if you don’t get it here, you won’t get it anywhere.

Such a powerful message.  We only get to ride the merry-go-round once.  This is our only chance.  So make it a good one!   :D

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15 days

Leaving Ohio….  I now have about 15 days…  It’s always amazing to me to think how BADLY I wanted to leave Ohio… The Snow… The Neighborhood… No jobs situation.  Being bored and lonely throughout most of it.

I was thinking running away to Hawaii.  Warm Weather 24/7 — Maybe better jobs (couldn’t be much worse)…  I always thought I could take a certain someone with me…  Pack her in my suitcase… But it would be so wrong and unfair.   So many what if’s.  It wouldn’t be easy living with someone else while trying to build a house and ‘ruffing’ it for a few months.  I just don’t see it.  I think I would turn into a big asshole … run out of money and not treat someone the way I would want to be treated.  So yeah…….  It would be a bit selfish to expect someone to just jump with me.  So….  I decided against it.  What I was hoping for … was maybe a visit after I get settled down but in reality it takes a special person to even attempt to LIVE in hawaii.  It’s so much change…

15 days…

Wow, it’s been such an emotional rollercoaster….  Selling/giving away 90-95% of my shit…  Half of me wonders if I’m even doing the right thing.    Kinda stupid if you ask me.  Risking relationships and basically everything on a dream.  Tho…  It’s too late now!!!   Man… 15 days.  It’s come so fast.  I’ve tried to prepare for this as much as I can…  Turning off the utilities, bringing back the modem to road runner, making sure the car is ready for 7K mile trek.  Meanwhile……

I’m REALLY going to miss Ohio.  It’s hard to see the valley when you missing someone.  All I see are peeks.  It’s really hard………  *cry*   All I can really take are my memories of all the good times I’ve had…  a lot of fun…  laughs and joys… I’ve learned a lot and experienced a lot…  What a long 4 years it’s been.  I’ve done a lot…  But ever since I was here my dream of moving back has always been eating at me.    I don’t know… I feel like not only did I throw out 95% of my shit, but 95% of my friends as well.  This is super hard.
Well, I’ve sold my pride and joy (computer) today I’m mailing it off @ the post office.   It’s just a sad day to reflect on the past 4 years.  The two houses I’ve owned and fixed up in Ohio has just been an overwhelming experience for me.  I have learned much and grown to open up more and express myself since life is too short to nitpick or be picky or be an asshole.  Time to step up to the plate.  The ball is coming fast…  Now where did I put my bat?    ;)

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How do you let go of attachment to things? Don’t even try. It’s impossible. Attachment to things drops away by itself when you no longer seek to find yourself in them

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A Lust For Freedom and Matters Of Concern

I cannot bring much where I am going, some clothes, pictures and a few small keep sakes. As I watch my home grow empty I ponder the impermanence of “things.” I’ve spent so much time collecting these things. What were they to me? Comforts at one time…. shackles now? And as each item from my home is sold or given away, so does another piece of the chain break from that which binds me here.

The first definition in Merriam-Webster’s dictionary for the word “thing” is a matter of concern. Beautifully simplified and completely accurate these matters of concern separate me from my idea of freedom; the largest being my own home. This thing I so desired, now is the puppeteer of my larger desires. I seek to end this cycle. But it is more than just attachment to things in the physical form, but also those goals or dreams in life we see as unfulfilled . I finally see, I finally understand that freedom is not a destination but rather a sacred place you find within the walls of your own consciousness. Our own mind is the fabricator of our own prison. Verily, all things are manifested and destroyed within our minds, desire and dread, hope and helplessness. But as I sit on the bare floor of my home. In this state of chaos and transition, in breaking down and building up, in belief and in vulnerability I finally get it.

Freedom will never represent Hawaii, or money, or anything physical. It is not a thing, nor is it a dream waiting for fruition. It is but a small space that lies somewhere between that which we pursue and that which we seek to escape. Freedom is now, or it will never be. For we will always be in between something, always coming or going. I can be liberated and unknowing and that’s a beautiful thing. I can be free… without all the answers, and with the bad news, and in the midst of joy and through the wreckage. I don’t have to wait. freedom is now… I like my this new mantra.

All things are inherently impermanent, and something ending or going away can remind us of this fundamental truth, and so it can be argued those things that come, and then leave us are meant to be, so as to teach us the truth of impermanence.

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